Forgiving and Loving Yourself Sets You Free
I have this small whiteboard that lives between my computer and my keyboard, and I write notes on it throughout the week as I move from meeting to meeting.
Sometimes the notes that end up on my whiteboard are just one-word reminders of things that I need to get done or the name of someone I need to call. I also jot down short phrases of ideas that I want to pursue.
I have to confess that there have been more than a few times when I have written down a word or a phrase and then forgotten why I wrote it down. Also, my handwriting is terrible, so there have been some moments when I haven't been able to decipher what I scribbled down.
When these moments occur, I often get angry with myself for being such a goof. I berate myself for not having the foresight to use better penmanship or to just be focused enough to write down enough information.
It astounds me how quickly my whiteboard can become an instrument of self-judgment and criticism rather than a helpful tool that merely helps me remember to write an email or figure out which video to use for worship.
I think that there are more than a few of us who struggle with these kinds of things. Maybe you don't have a whiteboard to indict you for not having your stuff together, but I'm betting there's something else.
I read a wonderful little quote from Melody Beattie the other day, so I wrote it down:
Self-judgments set us apart, separate us from the rest of the world in an undesirable way. Forgiving ourselves reconnects us to the world, to God, to ourselves.