Letting God to Let God
They call it "falling" asleep because discovering you have nothing to hold onto is how it always begins. - Dobby Gibson
I remember the moment when as a young man I decided that I no longer believed in God.
I recall that I was walking on pavement that may have part of a parking lot (the details aren't as important as the feelings I felt). Suddenly, I said out loud, "I don't believe in God." And then I waited.
There was a small part of me that expected a lightning bolt to descend suddenly and swiftly from the clear, blue Florida sky to turn me into a smudge spot on the pavement. But there was nothing. Just the sound of traffic, and a bird or two.
I remember feeling disappointed for a moment. What I didn't realize was that the lost feeling I felt right then was simply the feeling of letting go of my old constructs of God, and the fear that had been the foundation of my faith.
I felt a sense of freedom then, but it was a disorienting kind of freedom, and n…
I remember the moment when as a young man I decided that I no longer believed in God.
I recall that I was walking on pavement that may have part of a parking lot (the details aren't as important as the feelings I felt). Suddenly, I said out loud, "I don't believe in God." And then I waited.
There was a small part of me that expected a lightning bolt to descend suddenly and swiftly from the clear, blue Florida sky to turn me into a smudge spot on the pavement. But there was nothing. Just the sound of traffic, and a bird or two.
I remember feeling disappointed for a moment. What I didn't realize was that the lost feeling I felt right then was simply the feeling of letting go of my old constructs of God, and the fear that had been the foundation of my faith.
I felt a sense of freedom then, but it was a disorienting kind of freedom, and n…
