Fake Plastic Trees & Blank Screens
I have had so many conversations with people over the past couple of months that have included these phrases: "I feel tired all the time..." "I worked all day and feel like I got nothing done..." "I can't think about [the crisis du jour] right now, it's too much..."
Maybe some of you have felt like that during the past few weeks. You want to turn and run from the blank screens in your life, the ones that are indicting you, accusing you, wearing you out.
But you can't run. Because the world needs you now more than ever. Whatever the blank screen is in front of you, can only be filled by you, no one else. So as much as you would like to "blow through the ceiling," or "just turn and run," you can't.
Besides, where would you go at this point? Everything is pretty much closed.
So listen, if that's where you are right now... let me share with you this line from singer/songwriter Andrew Peterson's book Adorning The Dark that's been encouraging me lately:
Sometimes you have to do the work even if you don’t feel like it. Sometimes you have to put away your wants and do what needs to be done, which really means dying to self in order to find life. This is a way of practicing resurrection.
The first part of that quote is tough to hear when you aren't feeling your best or when you are feeling too empty inside to start filling up that blank screen in front of you. But when you keep reading, it begins to hit you...
Dying and rising... it's all about dying and rising.
"Everybody wants to go to heaven, but nobody wants to die..." That quote has both troubled and encouraged me from the first time I heard until now. It's the death part of practicing resurrection that hangs most of us up, am I right?
But if we are going to experience the incredible joy of rising again, we are going to have to die to the parts of ourselves that want to run... that want to leave the blank screens that only we can fill behind.
May you be filled with the courage to die to yourself and to your fears, and feelings of not being enough. May you be filled with the courage to die so that you can rise again to truly live the life that God dreams for you to live.
And may the grace and peace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you now and always. Amen.